Trust. The. Process.

Proverbs 3:5,6 (NIV) Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on yuor own understanding; in all your ways, submit to Him and He will give make your paths straight.

Since last night, I've felt like there was/is a huge weight on my chest.  My thoughts are all over the place.  When I woke up this morning, I wasn't in my usual peaceful solitude.  My mind was reeling.  Matter of fact, I don't even think it shut down while I slept.  Do I sound crazy?  Maybe.  But if you're like me...where God has shown you something and you become anxious.  He's shown you "dots" or "puzzle pieces" to what He wants you to do.  But none of the dots connect.  None of the puzzle pieces fit.  You wonder to yourself, "Lord, I'm doing all I know to do. Why am I not understanding any of this?"  If you can relate, just nod your head...because I'm sure that I'm not alone in this.

But see, here's the problem.  When God shows us something, we're ready to take off and run.  That extra surge of energy, adrenaline, motivation or whatever we choose to call it kicks in.  We jump head first into the direction we "think" God wants us to go.  However, many times through God showing us what He's calling us to do, a process follows.  And I'm not going to try to put on my bible scholar hat here.  Only tell from what's happening to me and hopefully we can all relate in this quandary of mine.  

Just because He has shown us a glimpse of something doesn't mean we're ready to embark.  Timing is everything. God has made everything beautiful in its time, a season for everything (Ecclesiastes 3:1,11).   But He also knows that there are processes He  take us through necessary for our growth and preparation.  He knows we will never be perfect beings while living here on earth in this corrupted flesh.  However, we can be as blameless as possible.  **Insert**  Blameless by the way, does NOT mean we will be SINLESS, but that we will SIN LESS (Isn't God awesome). But it's on us to allow Him to make it happen. 

 Psalm 119:1 says "How happy are those whose way is blameless, who live according to the Lord's instruction!"

Above trying to immediately jump in and do what God has called us to do...well, because first, for starters, God wouldn't have called us and showed us bits and pieces of anything if He didn't see we were qualified.  He's known us from the before the beginning of our lives.  So there's no need of us trying to reinvent a wheel or somehow make ourselves dignified for the call.  Instead, we should humbly trust the process.  

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"

It's not easy by  a long shot to wait on God.  And some of what He takes us through we'd rather find a way to go around it or skip it altogether.  But what I'm seeing is that the tests God brings me to are catered to what He has called me to do.  In this test, there's no "skipping the question." We say we trust in God.  We say we hold on to the faith we profess.  Well in doing so, lets understand this....God knows we will become weary in doing good.  Weary in the process.  Weary in the good fight.  However, because God is able, He will and does renew our strength, giving us wings to soar on like eagles (Isaiah 40:31).  He will allow us to reap a harvest if we don't give up (Galatians 6:9).

So what's the thing you struggle with?  Where do you find yourself becoming anxious in some of the things God has shown you?