They are colorful, beautiful, and in some cases very attractive. They give the persona of a new life all on its own. Behind the mask, we can be whoever we want to be. We can even make it up as we go along....We can weave it up, glam it up, make it up, clothe & shoe it up...Because behind this mask is someone we wish to permanently quiet. Behind the walls of the mask, we tuck away dark secrets, bones and skeletons. We want to get as far away from that person as possible. "I'm ugly. I'm not smart. I'm not confident. I don't know how I should be treated and how to treat others. I only exist to be used" How can I ever be accepted for the real I?" That's the inward conversation we have that convinces us to stay hidden. So let the masquerade go on, shall we.
But after a while, we get tired of holding that mask up. We start to run out of personalities to portray. We've already run our character in the ground by piling up facades and falsities. We're relentless, so with the mask half off, we start to desperately dig deeper. Putting ourselves out on the limb just to be blown away by whatever we wish to carry us off.
The mask is starting to look tattered. It's starting to unveil some of what we've tried so hard to hide. Our insecurities start to seep through like a foul odor in a landfill. "Where's the glue?" "Give me some tape!! I CANNOT expose this! Nobody will ever accept me for who I am!" Again, the inward conversation is at work. We hopelessly turn to superficial things, trying to repair the mask.
The sad thing is so many of us live this type of life everyday. It becomes second nature to live a pretend life...The misconception is that we're presenting to others our lies. We, unbeknownst to them, cause them to enable our behavior. They participate in this fable...not even realizing they are hurting us more than helping us.
Ladies...and men...it's time to search for our truth. It's time to stop the masquerading and charades and quiet the inward voice. When we become free from the pain or whatever it is that caused us to go into hiding...not only do weights fall off, but we move into position to enlighten others like us. The essence of who we are can be beautiful if we allow it...even it if does carry some scars.
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