You know how sometimes you encounter something that makes you think "Whoa, what was that about?" Or it pushes you into a mode of reflection? Know what I'm talking about? Well, I had one of those experiences yesterday. Before I continue with that thought, I have to be a bit transparent for a minute. On the outside, to the naked eye, I've been "fine." But on the inside....the side that only myself and God knows, there has been a storm going on. A quiet storm, but nonetheless a storm. The inward conversations I was having caused me to question a lot of things about my faith, people, and even God. I wavered back and forth between my own thoughts and the truth of God's word. James 1:6-8 says "But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do." I admit that. I wavered. I doubted. I questioned. Though I felt guilty about it all, I just couldn't wrap my brain & intellect around some of the things taking place in my life, some people in my life, and just life itself. I had definitely come to a fork in the road. And it was reflecting in my actions, attitude and some of the things I said.
The amazing thing about God is He has a way of grabbing our attention. A way that is far from our human comprehension. Because He said in Isaiah 55 that His ways are NOT ours and His thoughts are NOT ours. Everything about God is far above and beyond our human comprehension and intellect could ever reach.
Yesterday, as I was heading to an event at my church, I got into an accident. Though I got a bit roughed up, it wasn't as nearly as bad as it probably should & could have been. But it was enough to give me that wake up call.
And though I know this already, that accident reminded me again that God isn't looking for me to enter into a relationship with Him on an intellectual level. There will be experiences, situations, and questions that I will NEVER receive answers to. What God wants is my total and complete devotion to Him and His will. He's looking for me to recognize my imperfections through His perfection. He's looking for me who will put aside what I conceive with my human minds and walk into destiny by faith.
My lesson from that accident hasn't fully come to fruition, but what I have gathered from it is that God knows all. Things we keep hidden, He sees. The inward conversations we have, He hears. He is above all! He alone is Supreme! When we think we have our lives in our own hands under our own control, He steps in and lets us know that we are NOT our own and we DON'T really have all control.
So as I continue my journey in learning who God is, I encourage you all to do the same. Let down your guard and intellect...you'll only be fighting a losing battle if you don't. God is on your side. Though some situations you encounter may shake or question your faith...just know that though questioning and the shaking of our faith normal part of our human nature...we shouldn't stay there. Hebrews 11:6 says that "without faith it is IMPOSSIBLE to please God. Because anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists and He rewards those who earnestly seek Him. (emphasis mine).
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