Everything we do is literally based on a decision. What am I going to eat for breakfast? What should I wear out today? How should I fix my hair? And the list of questions can go on and on. But the result to all of our questions lie in the response. How we answer or even approach the answer to those questions. The saying "you can either look at the glass half full or half empty" has definitely become cliche'. Yet it still holds volumes of truth. Everything in life is steered off of the basis of our decisions. The vehicle won't turn until we decide which way its to go. We won't eat until we decide what we're going to eat and so on and so forth.
In my spiritual walk, there's been some crossroads, many crossroads actually that I've come to. And to be quite honest, because of my indecisiveness, I found myself sinking. The peace I had, began to smother under the caving weight of my inability to solidify my decision. See, when we welcome indecisiveness into our space, we're also allowing its companions of doubt, fear, and worry to come along with it, "Come right on in and have a seat! Fear you can sit right here next to my next step of opportunity. Doubt, uh, how about right here in the middle of my thoughts. And worry, just get comfortable in my overall heath." You see, there are access points to every aspect of our lives physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. And typically those access points are activated on the foundations of our decisions.
James 1:6-8 speaks about such a person who allows doubt to settle in and get comfortable in the spaces of the mind. When we become clouded with other things, our minds can't reach that point of solemn and peace. Instead, we feel like we're being torn up into the funnel of a tornado or as the scripture says "like a wave blown and tossed by the sea." And I'm here to tell you, that it's not a good feeling. To wake up everyday with the same feeling. To muster up the fuel from a tank that's already severely depleted of its resources....But again, it all goes back to a conscious decision.
When we choose to accept Christ into our lives, we make the decision to live for Him. But sometimes I don't think we fully grasp the understanding that comes with that decision. In the beginning, we're hungry and yearning for more of God. "Yes God, I hear You Lord." "To God be the glory." "Have Your way in me. Show me myself." Screech!!!!! Whoa, wait a minute! What's really going on here??? Why am I feeling like this? Why is this coming up? What should I do? I don't know what to do or which way to turn? I thought once I accepted God that my life would change! It happens to many of us who walk blindly by the flesh and not by the eyes of faith. We lose momentum because we thought what we had at first was good and enough. But it's not. And yes, when we accept God, our lives DO change...but of course with change comes discomfort and resistance.
Because when we truly enter into a relationship with God, though things seem good at first, His purpose is not to keep us where we are. He sees our end from the beginning. He knows His work is cut out for Him already...but it's in getting us on board is the issue. Every day God takes us higher in Him brings a new level of humility in us. His intent is not to kill us, take us out, or humiliate us...But to get us to make that solidified, unflinching decision that we will serve Him, place Him 1st, and carry out His will for our lives, regardless of the cost and level of comfortability.
To live for and serve God is challenging. There are many obstacles to overcome including the ones we harbor in ourselves. But His word doesn't lie. He said He would never leave us nor forsake us (Deuteronomy 31:6). He is faithful above anything we could possibly place our trust in here on Earth! All it takes is a deliberate decision to allow God to be who He is in our lives...
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